Thursday, 22 November 2007

Just taking time to try and write off this headache of mine, plonked down 2 tablets of panadol and it really hasn't let up a single bit. In fact, it might actually be getting worse. Not sure if this is a migraine or not but, it has been going on for a few days now. It's starting to affect my motor functions I guess, giddiness and dizziness are examples. Spinning worlds does that to you. Even now, when I type, there's a slight hesitation before my fingers register and transmute thought to motion, it it very noticeable when you have trained yourself to type and key words in like a mad chopper, and being reverted back to when you thought of every word, whether is it a t or y, really frustrates and strikes a discomforting chord in us.

It's been depressing really, the results for the confirmation have come out less than ideal, dropping Additional Mathematics has never occurred to me and I seriously can't think of how difficult succeeding in life without Maths can be. It was kind of like a weird epiphany of sorts. Always considered Mathematics to be secondary to language, yet now, now I am pining and hoping that I can retain the rights to carrying on Additional Mathematics. Regrettably, this is not the way I saw it to be, what seemed so far away has seeded and actually starting to come true, not in ways that I could have imagined.

This downer has affected the way I function, not only in the aforementioned motor department, but also in the way I carry out my everyday life. A hard and sad piece of evidence would be that I haven't cracked a smile for an entire day, which is a bad sign considering that I could, in the past, laugh and break at tiny details or just laugh for no particular reason, just 'cause I felt like doing so. This, feeling, really makes me confused, haven't felt this way in, well, ever. Hmm. I hardly even touched the computer or any gaming implements today save for a few rare occasions. The urge and temptations to play have subsided to a naught, even when placed in a situation where I will not be judged by a physical presence, I just can't get the steam rolling to move the mouse.

The biggest and obvious cause for concern right now would be that, I have become, a lot more soft spoken literally. Whenever I speak, instead of hearing a resonating sound in my head, in place of that, I have a soft echo trapped at the back of my mouth, blocked by what, I do not know. Which should not be surprising seeing that the self-confidence charts of the Leon have dropped 300 points.

Random Notes:

294 is just totally crazy. Shouldn't there have been a bell jar chart or something to regulate the spike in marks?

We can all only hope for a fairy tale ending to this, the ability to bounce back and hit back with equal force and vigour that has been bringing us down. Hmm. So weird isn't it, wanting to do well in something that I suck at, that's what I said with English a long time ago, yet here we are.

Signing Off........ Head held low? Yeah

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